It seems to be a lot of friction in the house lately, I just dont seem to be getting along with anybody. Its a weird sensation it feels like Im being misunderstood on so many levels, misunderstanding my woman-hood, and just me as a person. I'm feeling so defeated....not unconfident just defeated. I don't want to argue with anyone about my perspective but that's all that seems to be happening. Now when me and the other persons don't see eye to eye I just choose to walk away. I don't feel the need to argue or justify my beliefs and how I view something. I think in this house we all have very strong personalities and in this tiny 3 bedroom apartment we don't all fit as nicely as we would like. I also feel like I get thrown under the bus a lot more lately, like my opinion counts for nothing and my like my existence docent even matter.
Around here money is what pulls weight or more familiarly cash is KING, seeing as I'm unemployed i mind as well be a spectator in the game of life. Which has it perks bc if I'm smart I will learn from peoples mistakes and when its my turn I wont fall into the same traps however, I would love to more fruitful for my family bc more than support we need financial help.
I don't know what needs to happen to get us 3 women back on one page at least for the moment. It might be difficult bc each of us is striving for the same thing but going about in different ways. We might not be on the same exact page for a long time. I plan on just not stating my opinions or showing my concerns for anything for awhile. Just internalize some things for awhile or write them on this blog which is why I started it.
Today was just a bad day bc of the stressful time my family is going through but I pray and hope for better days, everything changes and I know eventually our luck will change as well. Life is like gem swap you keep aligning up the gems until you get a major chain reaction and get some serious points....until then I have to keep swapping these gems around!
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Around here money is what pulls weight or more familiarly cash is KING, seeing as I'm unemployed i mind as well be a spectator in the game of life. Which has it perks bc if I'm smart I will learn from peoples mistakes and when its my turn I wont fall into the same traps however, I would love to more fruitful for my family bc more than support we need financial help.
I don't know what needs to happen to get us 3 women back on one page at least for the moment. It might be difficult bc each of us is striving for the same thing but going about in different ways. We might not be on the same exact page for a long time. I plan on just not stating my opinions or showing my concerns for anything for awhile. Just internalize some things for awhile or write them on this blog which is why I started it.
Today was just a bad day bc of the stressful time my family is going through but I pray and hope for better days, everything changes and I know eventually our luck will change as well. Life is like gem swap you keep aligning up the gems until you get a major chain reaction and get some serious points....until then I have to keep swapping these gems around!
Human beings get so wrapped up in the moment and today's problems, they lose sight of the need for each other. Accept the things you cannot change (the near-sightedness that money problems bring) and change the things you can (your input to the situation) and have the wisdom to know the difference.
ReplyDeletePeace,
Dwight