So recently I have started to spend more time with my younger paternal siblings and it feels great, it took me a long time to get over some personal issues that I had. Basically I was just a little bit jealous of them and the time my fathers spends with them. Its even more unfair that I was holding them accountable for my jealousy and unhappiness! I really had to get a grip of myself and put my misguided animosity aside and do the right thing.
Sometimes I ponder how I come up with these conclusions without any help from outsiders and I chalk it up as God is raising me up, that he isn't just some passive being in the universe but an active one. What my mom fails to teach me God seems to.
Me and my paternal siblings have had some really good times, they came to a Halloween party that my maternal family threw together and it was a success. They had fun even though it was low budget, (the funny thing is that you don't have to spend a whole lot of money for kids to have fun). I have also had them over my house a couple of times and they seem t enjoy it. My house is kid friendly, there are lots of things for kids to do at my house, we have video games, toys, board games and arts/crafts. The only draw back is that I don't have a lot of space due to the fact that we live in an apartment. So, its hard to have them over sometimes because its not enough room, when my standard family is here its already 6 of us than you add my bonus family it becomes 9 people in a 3 bedroom apartment! However we make due, its only for a couple of hours and the longest might be a day.
I'm very proud of my mom she is very accepting and doesn't try to stop me from bringing them over here, but she does worry about people taking advantage of me. She's just being a typical mom watching my back, because no one else will. I tell her I can't worry about other people taking advantage of me, I have to do what's right and what's in my heart. I will let God deal with those terrible people, God can't stand for people to be treacherous or to take advantage of his soldiers .
I feel so much happier now that I spend more time with my paternal siblings, I already have a good relationship with one of the older brothers. We grew up together , these other paternal siblings are 12 and 13 years younger than I am. So, we bond in a different aspect, I suppose I look at them more like children and myself more as an adult than I did with my other paternal brother. I take much more responsibility in how I interact with them, what I teach them and expose them too. As I mentioned before I want to expose them to things they wouldn't normally come in contact with.
My baby sister has me thinking about a tea party, is an 8 year old to old for tea? I think it would be fun, I swear I played with stuff like that until I was 13 years old. However, kids now a days grow up wayyy tooo soon! I think parents need to reign it in a bit because its out of control kids shouldn't be so worldly at such an young age.
In the end, my heart is incomplete when I'm not around all my brothers and sisters. What i've learned from life is you can't let pain hold you back from loving and you can't let outside influences determine your choices in life especially when you already know whats right and whats in your heart to do. Whats in my heart is to love hard and be that caring figure that any body can come to, family or not. What's in my heart is to be a blessing for someone and to allow God to use me to do his work/ will. Whats also in my heart is to stand up for what I believe in and not be pushed over.
Sometimes I ponder how I come up with these conclusions without any help from outsiders and I chalk it up as God is raising me up, that he isn't just some passive being in the universe but an active one. What my mom fails to teach me God seems to.
Me and my paternal siblings have had some really good times, they came to a Halloween party that my maternal family threw together and it was a success. They had fun even though it was low budget, (the funny thing is that you don't have to spend a whole lot of money for kids to have fun). I have also had them over my house a couple of times and they seem t enjoy it. My house is kid friendly, there are lots of things for kids to do at my house, we have video games, toys, board games and arts/crafts. The only draw back is that I don't have a lot of space due to the fact that we live in an apartment. So, its hard to have them over sometimes because its not enough room, when my standard family is here its already 6 of us than you add my bonus family it becomes 9 people in a 3 bedroom apartment! However we make due, its only for a couple of hours and the longest might be a day.
I'm very proud of my mom she is very accepting and doesn't try to stop me from bringing them over here, but she does worry about people taking advantage of me. She's just being a typical mom watching my back, because no one else will. I tell her I can't worry about other people taking advantage of me, I have to do what's right and what's in my heart. I will let God deal with those terrible people, God can't stand for people to be treacherous or to take advantage of his soldiers .
I feel so much happier now that I spend more time with my paternal siblings, I already have a good relationship with one of the older brothers. We grew up together , these other paternal siblings are 12 and 13 years younger than I am. So, we bond in a different aspect, I suppose I look at them more like children and myself more as an adult than I did with my other paternal brother. I take much more responsibility in how I interact with them, what I teach them and expose them too. As I mentioned before I want to expose them to things they wouldn't normally come in contact with.
My baby sister has me thinking about a tea party, is an 8 year old to old for tea? I think it would be fun, I swear I played with stuff like that until I was 13 years old. However, kids now a days grow up wayyy tooo soon! I think parents need to reign it in a bit because its out of control kids shouldn't be so worldly at such an young age.
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